Run

In the midst of this all, I run in place
I run to bark at the lazy whispers that holds me back from trying
I run to remember my errors, my faults, and all the evils that I’ve done
I run to talk again with her who’ve lost me…
Or did I lost her?
I run to chase her again, to forgive her for being imperfect
I run to breathe and take a last long time of introspection, to check what kind of person I’m becoming,
to understand if I am really growing, and still learning
or if my heart is still pure;
I’ll run and run in this place, until I’m ready to take off…
I hope that I’ll be alright soon.

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100 Questions

1) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.

“ 3. I figured that if everyone else could smoke a cigarette without coughing, I could damn well too.” – Looking for Alaska, John Green

2) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, What can you touch?

My ukelele

3) Before you started this survey, what were you doing?

Watching BTS’s recent Run episode on V app.

4) What is the last thing you watched on TV?

24 Oras

5) Without looking, guess what time it is.

9 pm?

6) Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?

9:32 pm.

7) With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

Electric fan and my younger brother’s foot steps.

8) When did you last step outside? What were you doing?

A while ago. We went somewhere and bought something.

9) Did you dream last night?

No.

10) Do you remember your dreams?

Yes, right after I wake up, but as the day goes on, the memory of my dreams slips away. I don’t remember any now except for the extreme ones.

11) When did you last laugh?

A while ago.

12) Do you remember why / at what?

No. I laugh at everything.

13) What is on the walls of the room you are in?

Calendars and educational posters.

14) Seen anything weird lately?

No

15) What do you think of this quiz?

A good medium to reflect on things

16) What is the last film you saw?

Orange. It’s a good Japanese film. 🙂

17) If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?

Anywhere, as long as it is with the people I love.

18) If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?

Tickets, for movies, plays, extreme adventure, etc.

19) Tell me something about you that most people don’t know.

I’m only 4″11 😦

20) If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

Eradicate wars.

21) Do you like to dance?

Yes, I just developed my appreciation to dance just recently (because of KPop tbh). I used to hate dancing so much when I was younger.

22) Would you ever consider living abroad?

Yes, but I would probably take my family or friends with me. I don’t want to live alone.

23) Does your name make any interesting anagrams?

An Alice G. (??) I can’t make any interesting ones.

24) Who made the last incoming call on your phone?

My mama.

25) What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?

Spirited Away. It’s a Japanese animation film

26) Last time you swam in a pool?

January 2017. I can’t really remember the date.

27) Type of music you like most?

I love almost all kinds of music. 😮 Acoustic pop always gets me. But, recently, I’m into hiphop.

28) Type of music you dislike most?

Hard metal and emo punk. :< I used to like emo punk when I was younger though.

29) Are you listening to music right now?

Not at the moment.

30) What color is your bedroom carpet?

We don’t have a bedroom carpet 😂

31) If you could change something about your house, without worry about expense or mess, what would you do?

Everything. I would just transfer to another house with my family. It would be easier.

32) What was the last thing you bought?

람연 noodles

33) Have you ever ridden on a motorbike?

Nooo. I’d like to try

34) Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?

Both!!!

35) Do you have a garden?

No

36) Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?

I do

37) What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?

“It’s too early.”

38) If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be?

Jesus Christ

39) Who sent the last text message you received?

My mother.

40) Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?

Some music store. But, I don’t think I like the idea of owning a credit card.

41) What time is bed time?

Somewhere between 11:30am – 2:30am depending on the day and how tired I am.

42) Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?

No. I’d like to attend one to feed my constantly aesthetic-starving soul.

43) How many tattoos do you have?

I don’t have any.

44) If you don’t have any, have you ever thought of getting one?

Yes, but just simple designs on areas that are not often exposed.

45) What did you do for your last birthday?

It was a normal day. My mother prepared some extra food for that day. I like making my birthdays as normal days so I don’t really tell anyone.

46) Do you carry a donor card?

No. I used to but I can’t find it anymore.

47) Who was the last person you ate dinner with?

My family

48) Is the glass half empty or half full?

Half full

49) What’s the farthest-away place you’ve been?

Abra. 😦 I want to travel farther though.

50) When’s the last time you ate a homegrown tomato?

I don’t think I’ve ever had home-grown tomatoes.

51) Have you ever won a trophy?

Yes, but it was a group trophy.

52) Are you a good cook?

Maybe?

53) Do you know how to pump your own gas?

????

54) If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it be?

Jesus Christ.

55) Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?

Yes.

56) Do you touch-type?

I do.

57) What’s under your bed?

Old things.

58) Do you believe in love at first sight?

No

59) Think fast, what do you like right now?

BTS

60) Where were you on Valentine’s day?

At school

61) What time do you get up?

M – F : 6:30 am ; Weekends – 9/10 am

62) What was the name of your first pet?

Torxeus, Torxisse. They are white pigeons.

63) Who is the second to last person to call you?

Ivan (a friend)

64) Is there anything going on this weekend?

The usual ones. I haven’t been updated.

65) How are you feeling right now?

Uhm.. insecure? a little happy? 🙂

66) What do you think about the most?

The future. It’s kind of unhealthy actually because I tend to overdo it. But I can’t help it

67) What time do you get up in the morning?

See Question 61.

68) If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long would you wait to tell people?

Right after I won but I would only tell relatives and close friends

69) Who would you tell first?

My papa.

70) What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema?

Le Petit Poucet (a French film) It was last year and I watched it for free. I don’t really go to cinemas.

71) Do you sing in the shower?

YES.

72) Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?

See Question 40.

73) What do you do most when you are bored?

Practice instrments/learn guitar/ watch a variety show in a foreign language

74) What do you do for a living?

I’m still a student, but I work part-time as a teacher

75) Do you love your job?

Yessssss.

76) What did you want to be when you grew up?

To be an elementary teacher 🙂 And a writer. Or a business owner. Or some profession related to music.

77) If you could have any job, what would you want to do/be?

Music producer.

78) Which came first the chicken or the egg?

Egg

79) How many keys on your key ring?

I don’t have a key ring

80) Where would you retire to?

Somewhere nice and peaceful.

81) What kind of car do you drive?

I don’t own a car.

82) What are your best physical features?

My eyes and my dimples

83) What are your best characteristics?

I like taking care of people. 🙂 And I’m not boastful

84) If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go?

Somewhere in Seoul, South Korea

85) What kind of books do you like to read?

I like non-fiction these days, but I used to like YA a lot.

86) Where would you want to retire to?

See Question 80.

87) What is your favorite time of the day?

my waking hours

88) Where did you grow up?

Quezon City, Philippines

89) How far away from your birthplace do you live now?

I’m still here.

90)What are you reading now?

These questions.

91) Are you a morning person or a night owl?

Both 🙂 What is sleep?

92) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

No.

93) Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows?

Yes? Is this something some people cannot do?

94) Do you have pets?

Nooo. My parents don’t allow me.

95) How many rings before you answer the phone?

About 3? My phone is only on vibrate so I cant really hear unless it’s close to me.

96) What is your best childhood memory?

Hanging out with many people who are no longer in my life.

97) What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life?

Loool I’m still young HAHAH but I did worked as a canteen crew for 1 week and right now, I’m working part time as a tutor.

98) Any new and exciting things that you would like to share?

I just bought my first pizza for my family from the money that I actually worked for 😍

99) What is most important in life?

Kindness and love

100) What Inspires You?

Love

* My answers turned out to be monotonous 😦 I’m sorry if this bored you even more. I’m writing this at a time when I have no energy to write but I write anyways because I challanged myself to do this last week. Thank you for reading! 가자! ♥

Photography Tuesdays 01

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You tiptoe further and further away from the sunshine of my palms,
eager to see the shadows of the moon again, not because you miss its quiet enigma
but because you thought that the sun is shining too brightly that it hurts
your fingertips
your chest
and the soles of your feet;
you became so used to it that you thought you can no longer feel how much it actually hurts.

I want to tie a rope around your hands and yolk it with mine,
but your flighty soul is wanting to run from the sunshine, envying instead the sadness of the shadows.

I hope that I speak stronger than the dark half of your soul, so that his screams would be meager whispers,
and our pleas would come to you clearer.

Saturday Jams 01: Sinners – Lauren Aquilina

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Our lives are stories, waiting to be told
In search of silver linings, we discovered gold
And judgement taught us that our hearts were wrong
But they’re the ones that we’ll look down upon

The rules say our emotions don’t comply
But we’ll defy the rules until we die

So let’s be sinners to be saints
And let’s be winners by mistake
The world may disapprove
But my world is only you
And if we’re sinners then it feels like heaven to me

You showed me feelings I’ve never felt before
We’re making enemies, knocking on the devil’s door
But how can you expect me not to eat,
When the forbidden fruit tastes so sweet?

5 Beloved BIGBANG (빅뱅) Songs

If anyone would ask me why I am learning Hangul, it is because of this wonderful band that I love so much — BIGBANG. I want to understand their songs, and sing along with them whenever their music plays. I’m not much of a fan yet when they came here in the Philippines, although I already knew some of their songs (Last Dance, Lies, Haru Haru, Fantastic Baby, etc.). Years after they came here, I inadvertenly plunged my way deep into the VIP fandom, discovered a lot of beautiful BIGBANG music, and then, slowly, I became a VIP myself.

It’s not very hard to love them. The members (G-Dragon, Taeyang, Daesung, T.O.P., Seungri) are actually complex and interesting personalities. I discovered this in variety shows, interviews, TV Shows, and radio shows where they appeared. They always give deep insights on things. They knew when to get serious and when to mess around. Also, they are all very hard-working and professional. They put so much effort, efficiency and passion into their work (composing, dancing, singing).

But, what I admire the most about their group is their strong brotherhood that I really, really envy.

There’s still so much to say about them, but I’m not writing those here, because I’d like to invite you to this fandom, and discover it yourself, slowly, just as how I experienced it. Slow is the best, trust me. It’s not enough to read about how awesome they are or how good their music is. Watch them, listen to their music, and you’ll know. 💕

I’d like to share you 5 of the most beloved BIGBANG songs by VIPs (based on what I’ve read on forums, polls, etc.), in no particular order.

(Here’s the playlist of the songs used in this post, just in case you want to listen while reading.)

1. Let’s Not Fall in Love (우리 사랑하지 말아요)

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Notable lyrics:

◀ 우리 사랑하지 말아요 아직은 잘 모르잖아요
사실 조금은 두려운 거야
그대 미안해요
우리 약속하지 말아요 내일은 또 모르잖아요
하지만 이 말 만은 진심이야
그대 좋아해요

English translation:

Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet
Actually, I’m a little scared,
I’m sorry
Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes
But I really mean it when I say
I like you

◀ 날 가지려 하지 말아요
그저 이대로 조금만 있어요
갈수록 더 마음 아파지게 왜?

English translation:

Don’t try to have me
Let’s just stay like this
You’re making it more painful, why?

2. If You

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Notable lyrics:

◀멀어지는 그 뒷모습만을 바라보다
작은 점이 되어 사라진다
시간이 지나면 또 무뎌질까
옛 생각이 나 니 생각이 나

IF YOU IF YOU
아직 너무 늦지 않았다면
우리 다시 돌아갈 수는 없을까
IF YOU IF YOU
너도 나와 같이 힘들다면
우리 조금 쉽게 갈 수는 없을까
있을 때 잘할 걸 그랬어

English translation:

I’m looking at her, getting farther away
She becomes a small dot and then disappears
Will this go away after time passes?
I remember the old times. I remember you

If you, If you
If it’s not too late
Can’t we get back together?
If you,  If you
If you’re struggling like I am,

Can’t we make things a little easier?
I should’ve treated you better when I had you

3. Bang Bang Bang (뱅 뱅 뱅)

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Notable lyrics:

◀난 불을 질러 네 심장을 태워
널 미치게 하고 싶어
B.I.G Yea we bang like this 모두 다 같이

총 맞은 것처럼

BANG! BANG! BANG!
BANG! BANG! BANG!
빵야 빵야 빵야
BANG! BANG! BANG!
BANG! BANG! BANG!
빵야 빵야 빵야

English translation:

I’ll set this place on fire, to burn up your heart
I wanna make you go crazy
B.I.G Yea we bang like this, everyone together

Like you’ve been shot

BANG! BANG! BANG!
BANG! BANG! BANG!
Bang bang bang
BANG! BANG! BANG!
BANG! BANG! BANG!
Bang bang bang

4. Last Dance

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Notable lyrics: (I can honestly quote the whole song. It’s just so beautiful.)

◀영원할 줄 알았던 사랑도 저물고

이젠 그 흔한 친구마저 떠나가네요
나이가 들어서 나
어른이 되나 봐요
왜 이렇게 불안할까

사람들은 오늘도 과거에 머물고
세상은 나 없이도 잘 돌아가네요
아직은 어려서 나
철이 안 드나 봐요
왜 이렇게 바보 같을까

아무것도 없이
그저 행복해하던 때가
엊그제 같은데
그래 너무 멀리 와버렸어 난
기억이 안 나
모든 게 처음이라
서툴고 설레이기만 해
그 시절 기억들이
아직도 꿈만 같은데 난
지금 어디로 가는지

나는 이 노랠 부르며
너에게 돌아갈 거야
아름다웠던 그댈
다시 볼 수 있다면
너와 이 노랠 들으며
마지막 춤을 출 거야
이 순간을 기억해 언제까지라도
Just one last dance

English translation:

Love that I thought would last forever has set

Now even my friends are leaving
Beacuse I’m getting older
I guess I’m becoming an adult
Why am I so anxious?

People linger in the past again today
The world goes around just fine even without me
I’m still young
I’m still immature
Why am I such a fool?

Times that I was so happy
Even without anything
It seems like yesterday
But I came too far
I don’t remember it anymore
Because everything was for the first time
I was clumsy and filled with butterflies
Memories of those times
Are still like a dream
But where am I going right now

As I sing this song
I will go back to you
If only I could see the beautiful you again
I will listen to this song with you
And have a last dance
Remember this moment
Until always
Just one last dance

5. Haru Haru (하루하루)

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Notable lyrics:

◀돌아보지 말고 떠나가라 또 나를 찾지말고 살아가라
너를 사랑했기에 후회 없기에 좋았던 기억만 가져가라
그럭저럭 참아 볼만 해 그럭저럭 견뎌 낼만 해
넌 그럴수록 행복해야 돼 하루하루 무뎌져 가네

English Translation:

Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and just live on
Because I have no regrets from loving you, so only take the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand it in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
Day by day it fades away

Recommendations:

Here are another 4 songs from their sub-units/ solos that you should also check out:

1. Eyes, Nose, Lips – Taeyang ( 태양)

2. Good Boy – 태양 x G.D

3. That XX – G- 드래곤

4. Darling – 태양

 

100 This or That

잘잣서! 잘지네? (Good morning! How are you?) I’m doing this because it’s 장난 (fun) and I think that I’ve not been sharing a lot about myself here or, anywhere, really. So here it is 🙂 (credits to Tumblr for these questions)

1. Coffee or Tea? Tea.
2. Black & White or Colour? Both.
3. Drawings or Paintings? Both. I live for aesthetics in any forms.
4. Dresses or Skirts? Dresses.
5. Books or Movies? Depends. Books, I need to contemplate, and movies, whenever I am too lazy to think. Also, I love performing arts, so there’s that.
6. Pepsi or Coke? Neither. High sugar 😦
7. Chinese or Italian? Both.
8. Early Bird or Night Owl? What is sleep? I’m both.
9. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate
10. Introvert or Extrovert? Introvert who likes making friends/acquaintance s.
11. Hugs or Kisses? Both
12. Hunting or Fishing? Uhm. Neither? 😦 I’m an animal lover.
13. Winter or Summer? Winter. ‘Cause I’ve never experienced it, and they say it’s cool (literally and figuratively)
14. Spring or Fall? I’d like to experience both
15. Rural or Urban? Rural. It just gets so crazy here most of the time (urban).

16. PC or Mac? PC
17. Tan or Pale? Pale. (I need blood)

18. Cake or Pie? Depends on what kind of cake and what kind of pie.
19. Ice Cream or Yogurt? Ice Cream!
20. Ketchup or Mustard? Ketchup.
21. Sweet Pickles or Dill Pickles? Sweet Pickles.
22. Comedy or Mystery? Comedy. I need a little light for my life.
23. Boots or Sandals? Boots
24. Silver or Gold? Gold
25. Pop or Rock? Both! I love all kinds of music, but lately, I’ve been listening to more pop music (안녕 kpop!)
26. Dancing or singing? Both! I’m working on both, because I think I’m bad at both

27. Checkers or Chess? Chess.

28. Board Games or Video Games? Board Games.
29. Wine or Beer? Beer, because I’ve never tried it the hard way
30. Freckles or Dimples? Dimples

31. Honey Mustard or BBQ Sauce? Both
32. Body Weight Exercises or Lifting Weights? I don’t exercise 😦
33. Baseball or Basketball? I don’t do neither sport but I used to be a basketball fan

34. Crossword Puzzles or Sudoku? Crossword Puzzles
35. Facial hair or clean shaven? Clean Shaven? :))
36. Crushed Ice or Cubed Ice? Ice
37. Skiing or Snowboarding?  I’ve tried neither, but I’d like to do both

38. Smile or Game Face? Smile
39. Bracelet or Necklace? Necklace
40. Fruit or Vegetables? Vegetables.
41. Sausage or Bacon? Bacon.
42. Scrambled or Fried?  Scrambled
43. Dark Chocolate or White Chocolate?  Chocolate
44. Tattoos or Piercings? Tattoos.
45. Antique or Brand New? Brand new.
46. Dress Up or Dress Down? Dress up.
47. Cowboys or Aliens? Aliens
48. Cats or Dogs? Dogs ftw

49. Pancakes or Waffles? Waffles.
50. Bond or Bourne? I’m not into  neither.
51. Sci-Fi or Fantasy? Fantasy.
52. Numbers or Letters? Letters
53. Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings? Harry Potter. It’s my childhood!!! ✨
54. Fair or Theme Park? Fair.
55. Money or Fame? Money.
56. Washing Dishes or Doing Laundry?Washing dishes.
57. Snakes or Sharks? Snakes

58. Orange Juice or Apple Juice? Apple Juice.
59. Sunrise or Sunset? Sunset.
60. Slacker or Over-Achiever? I’m somewhere in the midde
61. Pen or Pencil? Pen
62. Peanut Butter or Jelly? .Peanut butter
63. Grammys or Oscars? I enjoy both.
64. Detailed or Abstract? Detailed.
65. Multiple Choice Questions or Essay Questions? Essays. I have a way of effectively pretending that I knew a subject by heart. I enjoy playing with words a lot
66. Adventurous or Cautious? Adventurous.
67. Saver or Spender? Spender 😦 I need to tone down this habit.

68. Glasses or Contacts? Glasses

69. Laptop or Desktop? Laptop.
70. Classic or Modern? A fusion of both is beautiful

71. Personal Chef or Personal Fitness Trainer? Personal Chef!
72. Internet or Cell Phone? Internet. Can’t live without it
73. Call or Text? Text. If I need to talk with somebody I prefer to do it face to face.
74. Curly Hair or Straight Hair? Straight
75. Shower in the Morning or Shower in the Evening? Shower in the morning
76. Spicy or Mild? Mild.
77. Marvel or DC? I love both.
78. Paying a Mortgage or Paying Rent?Rent

79. Sky Dive or Bungee Jump? Both! I haven’t tried both 😦
80. Oreos or Chips Ahoy? Oreos
81. Jello or Pudding? Pudding
82. Truth or Dare? Dare.
83. Roller Coaster or Ferris Wheel? Roller coaster. The faster and the more adrenaline-inducing, the better.
84. Leather or Denim? Denim.
85. Stripes or Solids? Solids.
86. Bagels or Muffins? Muffins.
87. Whole Wheat or White? What? haha
88. Beads or Pearls? Beads.
89. Hardwood or Carpet? Hardwood.
90. Bright Colours or Neutral Tones? Bright colours.
91. Be Older Than You Are or Younger Than You Are? I like my age. (18)
92. Raisins or Nuts? Nuts
93. Picnic or Nice Restaurant? Nice restaurant.
94. Black Leather or Brown Leather? Black leather
95. Long Hair or Short Hair? Long hair.
96. “Ready, Aim, Fire” or “Ready, Fire, Aim”?Ready, aim, fire.
97. Fiction or Non-Fiction? Non-Fiction.
98. Smoking or Non-Smoking? Non-Smoking
99. Think Before You Talk or Talk Before You Think? Think before you talk.
100. Asking Questions or Answering Questions? Asking questions.

kumusta

kumakaripas ang mga araw nang napakabilis,
kaya naman aking tinigil pansamantala ang paghabol
sapagkat nakakapagod rin pala
nakakauhaw, nakakataranta
kailangang magpahinga.

sa aking pagtigil ay agad kitang naalala
parati naman kitang naalala sa mga pagtakbo
ngunit sa pagkakataong ito,
hindi muna kita itataboy sa aking gunita
kailangan ulit kitang makita.

bago tayo maglakbay sa magkakalayong landas ay bumuo tayo ng mga pangako
na muling magtatagpo
na para sa susunod na ganap,
tayo ay magpaplano
nangako tayong hindi puputulin ang kahit ano.

siguro nga ay nasulat lang natin ang lahat ng iyon sa tubig
siguro ay hindi tayo ganoon kalapit sa isa’t-isa
o siguro ay sineseryoso natin ang paghabol sa oras, at sa mga bagay na nagpapasaya sa atin
kaya siguro hindi tayo makagawa ng paraan
siguro
siguro hindi ko talaga alam kung anong nangyayari sa ating pagkakaibigan
siguro ay hindi talaga ako magaling sa pagaalaga ng mga relasyon
siguro ay naging pabaya ako
siguro, hindi ako naging tunay kaibigan
na laging nangangamusta,
na laging nagpapadala ng mga mensahe, tumatawag, nakikinig, nagbabahagi
siguro ikaw rin
siguro.

sana ay kung ano ang pagkakaibigan natin sa nakaraan,
ay ganoon pa din ang mayroon sa ngayon
sana maalala mo na minsan, naging bahagi rin ako ng buhay mo
kaibigan pa rin ang aking turing sa iyo
sana ganoon din sa iyo.